Yes! I am unhappy. I'm still fuming over your empty promise to spending time with me. All I ask is to walk in the park. Is that so difficult?! I know you are tired, but you have already slept for more than our agreed time. You promised that you would wake up, and bring me to this and that places.
All empty words.
This is not the 1st time. I shouldn't have such high expectation.
I'm sullen and I just can't seem to talk to you now. I'm too angry, too broken to talk now. I have changed my job, just to have more time be with you! You know that I love my design job. You know it is not easy for me to change into such a contrast industry. I bit the bullet. I should have gone to work today, if not for you. I did the house work, so that you don't have to do any. So that you would not have excuses which delay your sleep. The ultimate purpose is for you to have energy to spend time with me later.
Why do I feel like as if I'm always have to strive to have your attention?
If by marrying you, you think that you have all the time to be with me, yet you didn't spend time to be with me. Spending quality time is important to me. Not when you are about to sleep. Not when you are watching TV. Not when you are working while talking to me over the phone.
You ask me why am I not treasuring the time now, that you're awake in the middle of the night.
My heart hurt. I can't bring myself to spend time with you now.
I need to sleep.
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